I wonder if these unpleasant feelings are in any way related to my latest tendency of lurking in social media. I don’t feel like interacting with anyone. Perhaps I have been scarred from interacting because of those days of getting too many follow requests for my comfort back in planetearth.social at the beginning of the year.
It… it was a really scary experience. I am not used to getting that much attention online so when I kept getting notifications of follow requests from a bunch of people whom I had never interacted with, I was terrified because I didn’t understand what had prompted this reaction.
I am inundated by worry and doubt. Do I really want to write as a living? Reading these articles from The Open Notebook make me feel unpleasant in a way I cannot describe. What do I really want?
Am I unable to write because I do not want to, or because I have convinced myself I am unable to? I can’t seem to make heads or tails from my feelings.
I am lost and do not where to go.
Hello from Omnibear! 😆
This post was drafted on April 5th, 2026.
I think I’m pretty satisfied with today’s work on my site. I basically changed it from a projects focused site to a blog. Well, it’s not just a blog. I changed the Now page to only contain the first section with what I’m focusing now and moved the entries to a new page called Journal.
I removed the Projects and Links pages. The Projects page will be part of a new website, a digital garden. Then, I created placeholders for a Portfolio page and a Contact page. I might bring back links as a set of recommendations, bookmarks, or a blogroll. I didn’t have much to offer aside from the Nature-Inspired Art page which I will move to the digital garden.
Finished another large update to the website. I think I describe the previous one as the 0.5 version. Now, I feel confident this one went up to 1.0!
I added a BUNCH of new pages as well as some new navigation links. The Portfolio and Contact pages are empty but that’s okay with me.
The bulk of the updates were the slash pages and the blog. A pretty smooth sailing. I don’t feel tired or stressed from this endeavor.
What? Designed a boardgame.
Who? Scientists Ashmita Das, Julie Capito and Esteli Jimenez-Soto.
When? In 2023.
Where? at Syracuse University.
Why? To teach undergraduate students the ecological principle of companion planting.
In 2023, scientists at Syracuse University Ashmita Das, Julie Capito and Esteli Jimenez-Soto designed a boardgame to teach undergraduate students the ecological principle of companion planting.
Ah yes, talking about my internship, today I worked on catching up with the internship journal entries.
I also wanted to update the Samples of Work post but Dad found an interesting YT channel, Lock Smth Financing about economics and geopolitics so I spent some time watching their videos. It was really informative!
Anyways, I should at least update my work samples. It’s just adding some figure descriptions and the corresponding altar text!
Spent a good time just staring at my website’s Markdown version thinking of what else to add. I think I’m quite done with this update then! I can move onto the coding stage, exciting!!!
Gotta remove the projects page. Or better, create a copy, remove the git folder, and rename it as a digital garden. Then back to the original site’s copy, rename the Projects and Links pages to Portfolio and Contact.
Where /where is a page to let other people know where I am.
Last updated: , 2026
Current Location 📍 🇪🇨 Guayaquil, Ecuador
Been is a page that list other places I have been in the past.
Last updated: , 2026
2025 🇺🇸 Tampa, United States
This is a list of environmentally friendly habits I have been developing since 2020. This list includes items, habits, and sustainable alternatives. It began as a collection in my bullet journal that I decided to share with a larger number of people.
The purpose behind this page is to have a comprehensive list of earth-friendly options that support circular economies, sustainable consumption, and the low-waste movement. My axiom is “buy local, organic, and avoid non-petroleum based and single-use materials whenever possible.
Summary: I am heavily inclined to not use Large Language Models (LLM) for any section of this website from the brainstorming phase to implementation. I do not use so-called AI tools for code generation, spell checking, or any other well-known use.
The Whole Story My first experience with LLM was ChatGPT by revising my resume. The experience was largely pleasant. This was the beginning of 2025.
As my interest in this technology grew, I began to read more about it.
Continuing to use FeedFlow to catch mainly Mastodon posts. It’s just as cognitively heavy as scrolling through social media itself and that’s without the urge to type a response.
Still no idea nor desire to interact. What a pickle 🤔. Well, I have my website so I can show that I exist online. It’s still surprising how difficult it is to find like minded people who don’t use their account to vent. At least I know that I’m not stretching myself thin. I’ll keep at this for longer.
Been doing a deep cleaning of the house the past couple of weeks and we rediscovered the old laptops.
Dad wanted to refurbish then and donate them but seeing the current state Windslop 11 I am feeling inclined to paying someone to install Linux in one of these machines.
I have some experience with LibreOffice from school (crazy) and I hold those memories quite fondly.
My laptop’s battery doesn’t hold past two hours so I’m thinking of using that one for work because otherwise I would spend an unhealthy amount of time on it and a Linux based one for personal projects or entertainment.
A mindless crochet project is really nice when my head is full of The Task but I must take a break 🥰
reflect on accomplishments, challenges, skills gained, relationships developed, observations, applied coursework. career skills enhancement goals for the rest of the year. I am working as an intern at Dr. Jimenez-Soto’s Living Agroecology Lab. During these three months, I have faced several challenges, learned new skills, and developed professional relationships. This essay is a full reflection of my internship experience so far and a look at what I want to accomplish in the remaining of the year.
Today I looked up some Youtube videos on script writing. Quickly found that what I want to write is in fact a voice over script (or something like that).
I found @findyourvoice_vb on YT and found some really good advice on several videos (except the one that was written with AI, that one was generic and a waste of time except the last tip which was actually written by the script writer.
Finally got around grabbing RSS feeds from Mastodon mutuals and personal sites for my reader. I’m not a fan of mainstream Mastodon after getting so many follow requests when I wrote an intro post on my second instance, so I’m taking a step back and using an RSS feed to see what’s up first.
Received my badge for the Global Citizen’s Program! I had completed all requirements last year but they give it out when students are graduating so I got the email yesterday! Never received something like this till now so it’s very exciting! I was also able to download a certificate and the badge as an image. I think I’ll add it in my personal website’s about section.
Continuing to focus on developing my website. I always wanted to add a digital garden and finally decided on some way to go. I copied my website’s Obsidian vault version and renamed it as a digital garden. Not gonna focus on it too much today but I know what kind of stuff I want to add there.
The reason why I felt to do this today was because I didn’t like how the current Projects page in my website looks. I want a space to show my works in progress and because I don’t have large social media presence, I want to make my website look “finished” or at least not have too many broken pages. On a digital garden, unfinished is the point! So I will move my craft projects to my garden.